From Exhaustion to Empowerment: My Half-Ironman Journey

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The Journey Begins

You probably thought this would be a quick, light read about my Half-Ironman journey. Maybe you expected me to talk about the thrill of the race or my nutrition strategy—l ike how I ate enough calories to feed a small village. But let’s rewind for a moment.

The truth is, this journey started long before race day. It became a beautiful process of rediscovering myself—rebuilding my confidence and redefining what I thought I was capable of.

A Cycle of Stress and Exhaustion

There was a time when everything felt like it was falling apart. My life had become a cycle of stress and exhaustion. The job I was working in drained me, with days that blurred into nights, and no clear boundaries between work and personal time. I was always on—working during the day, late into the night, and even on weekends, constantly available. To make things worse, I was in an environment where fear and control were the driving forces behind management. Yelling and intimidation were the norm, and I struggled to thrive under those conditions. Unsurprisingly, my coffee consumption skyrocketed—probably to levels that would make even Italians concerned.

Outside of work, there was tension and negativity in my relationships that seemed to weigh on me. It felt like the stress followed me everywhere, leaving me with no escape. The constant pressure, both at work and in my personal life, left me feeling trapped.

Through reading, self-reflection, and some uncomfortable honesty, I realized something important: I couldn’t keep waiting for my surroundings to change. I had to take responsibility for my own growth and well-being.

A New Foundation: Sports and Growth

At some point, I realized I needed to set a new foundation for myself. And for me, that foundation started with sports. I probably used pain and frustration as motivation at first—hitting the gym became an outlet and what began as an escape slowly transformed into a routine that gave me stability and purpose. In addition to providing structure, each workout became a small victory in reclaiming the confidence I had lost. With each workout, I gained more confidence, and that feeling began to spill over into other areas of my life. I wasn’t just becoming stronger physically—I was becoming mentally resilient as well. I started to approach life’s challenges with the same mindset I brought to my training: determination and the belief that no matter how hard things got, I could push through. The lessons I learned through sports—showing up every day, putting in the work, and trusting the process—became my guiding principles in life. I would always get back up, keep pushing, and never give up, because I knew that perseverance, in the end, leads to real, lasting growth.

At some point, with each achievement, I started to wonder: What more could I do? That’s when the idea of completing a Half-Ironman took hold. I think I first saw a video of someone crossing the finish line on YouTube, and it stuck with me. The image of completing a race of that magnitude stayed in my mind, always in the background, like I was manifesting it somehow.

The more I thought about it, the more it became something I knew I had to do. It wouldn’t just be another race—it would be something extraordinary, a defining moment. I pictured myself at that finish line many times, feeling the weight of the effort, the sacrifice, and knowing it would all be worth it. With that image firmly in my mind, I made the leap—I bought a ticket for the Half-Ironman.

So The Training Begins

I started training in November, with the race set for September. And there was just one small issue: I didn’t know how to swim. Well, not properly, at least. I knew the basic breaststroke you pull out when you’re on vacation at the beach—just enough to stay afloat but not enough to race. And let me tell you, swimming was hard for me.

For the first 3 to 4 months, I could barely make it 10 meters without feeling completely off balance. If I somehow managed to complete a 25-meter set, it felt like I had just sprinted at full speed, and I was completely exhausted. I was extremely inefficient in the water. To be honest, I was quite worried—I could barely swim 25 meters, and I had to swim 1,900 meters on race day.

But instead of letting that stop me, I embraced the challenge. I started swimming five times a week, determined to get better. I even got a coach, and that decision helped me immensely. Slowly but surely, I could feel myself improving in the water. Cycling had always been a bit easier for me compared to swimming, but it still required serious endurance. Since you spend the most time on the bike during the race, I made it a priority in my training. I trained the most for cycling, and over time, I became consistent with it. I remember when a 100-kilometer ride used to leave me completely exhausted. But after a while, I started feeling stronger, like I could push even further after each ride. What once seemed impossible became doable, and my confidence on the bike grew.

As I gained more stamina, I started incorporating brick workouts—cycling followed by running, back-to-back. This was where things got really interesting. Running after a bike session is something totally different than running a regular 10k on fresh legs. My legs felt heavy, like they didn’t want to move at all, and I had to learn how to adjust and keep pushing through the fatigue. But just like everything else, consistency paid off. I remember one particular workout that really tested me, and it was close to race day. I decided to do half the distance—1 kilometer swim, 45 kilometers on the bike, and a 10-kilometer run. It was about as close to a dress rehearsal as you could get. The swim and bike went well enough, but when it came to the run, I quickly realized I had started too strong. To make matters worse, it was around 30 degrees Celsius outside, and the heat hit me hard.

As I pushed through the run, doubt started creeping in. I found myself questioning if I could actually complete the Half-Ironman. That day, I realized how much of the race was mental as much as it was physical. The moment you start telling yourself you can't do it, you're probably right. That experience was a wake-up call—it wasn’t just about physical endurance, but about controlling my mind, staying focused, and pacing myself.

From that moment on, I adopted a mindset of absolute determination. I told myself, "Even if I break my two legs, I’ll crawl to the finish line." On race day, I promised to give everything I had, pacing myself smartly and keeping my nutrition on point. It wasn’t about just finishing; it was about doing it right, with everything I’d trained for.

Race Day

And it was true. On race day, even though I was extremely nervous, I remember coming out of the water and feeling unstoppable. The nerves I’d carried with me for months seemed to fade away the moment I completed the swim. It was the part of the race I had feared the most, and conquering it felt like the first big victory of the day.

Not only that, but the swim turned out to be my favorite part of the race. It was the most dynamic, with adrenaline rushing through me—even when I got a few elbow shots to the face from other swimmers. In that moment, all the doubts that had plagued me were replaced with confidence. I had made it through the water, and I knew I was ready for the rest of the race. I finished the race in 6 hours and 20 minutes. There’s still plenty of room for improvement, but that’s part of the journey. I’m already looking for new challenges and seeing what life throws at me next.

Conclusion

Completing the Half-Ironman remains the most memorable and beautiful experience of my life. The journey itself was transformative, not just physically, but emotionally and mentally. I came out of it with a new sense of confidence. I loved myself more, became more assertive, and established better boundaries. Throughout the process, I was surrounded by positive people who encouraged me, and I felt that positivity reflected in all areas of my life.

I changed in ways I hadn’t expected, and the world around me changed with it. Everything seemed better—more aligned with who I had become. Looking back, I’m incredibly proud of how far I’ve come. The Half-Ironman became more than just a race for me; it became a symbol of what I’m capable of—much more than I or anyone else could have imagined.

I’ve made a promise to myself: I will never allow anyone to put me in a small box or define my limits for me. I define my own narrative, and I choose positivity in my life. The journey to the Half-Ironman reminded me that with the right mindset, perseverance, and belief in myself, I can achieve anything I set my mind to.